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| wow. i haven't been on here yet, so i guess i'll say happy new year. i'm several days behind and all, but so far 2006 has been going pretty well. i guess before i get on to the new, i'll finish up what happened during the 2nd week of break. right now i should be doing homework, as usual, but i was bored and at the computer anyways and decided to come on here since it's been awhile. i know that this is going to be loooong. i'm just warning you...
ho-kai, now to the back tracking. on the 12/26 all i did was play ps2 with my bro for like the whole night. same goes for the 27th, not the whole day tho because at night me, my bro, my sis, and dad went bowling with my godsisters and their dads @ south coast. it was fun even tho i suck ass at bowling. i can't seem to get anything over a 75, how lame. wednesday (28th) i don't remember what the hell i did during the day, but i know for a fact that i did not do any trig homework. at night tho for some odd reason i was motivated to clean out my closet, well, not entirely, just clothes that i don't wear anymore/forgot even was in my closet in the first place. i was on the phone with mariel so we ended up motivating each other. on thursday me and mariel went to fsm and went shopping for tica's gift and i got stuff for my nano (hmmm, which i still haven't gotten the chance to use yet...long story). then on friday the 30th it was much fun, at night. after all the drama that is. i had to fight with my parents to go to the black eyed peas concert.
it was totally worth it tho. and i think after that fight they realized a few things. they didn't think that i was coming home. but let's just say when i left i had the last say before bolting out the door and by saying "fine, i get it, it doesn't matter how old i am" made them think. after that went down me and mariel were suppose to go to tica's b-day party, but we didn't make it because we needed to get to the mandalay bay. oh my gosh, those free tickets were awesome. floor seats. 23rd row. center. it was amazing. i loved it. afterwards we wanted to rest for a bit and let the crowd and traffic die down so we went up into the comp room that her rents got too. and of course we camera whored it up. i love how we didn't care about being home by midnight. we didn't even leave the room until like 12:30-ish. hella crazy when we got down to the casino tho. all those drunk people. then guess who we run into while we were by rum jungle near the parking garage? janray, miles, and patrick. we all parked on the same floor and since me and mariel didn't know where we parked, they drove us to her car.
i got home at like 1, but wasn't tired yet. technically now it's saturday, the 31st. the last day of 2005. for some reason during the break i'd go to bed sometime between 2-5 in the morning. being bored and feeling the need to figure out things before the new year i decided to call up patrick. wow. he actually answered. it turns out that our actions and decisions were only for the better of the other person. as in the reason for the break up. and why he never called. and why i layed off and stopped trying to get in touch with him. we talked for awhile and caught up with each other which was good. now onto the eve of that day which was spent at my auntie's house. me and dawn had so much fun drinking because our auntie kept on making drinks for us. my fam decided to leave around 11:30 so that we could watch the fireworks. i wanted to stay at my auntie's house, but i was over-ruled so i made the best out of it because no one wants to start the new year being all upset, mad, etc. yay. i'm done with the last week of break.
on the first day of the new year i was just at home and mariel came over so that she could look at the pix that i picked up the day before. they were from the end of october when we went to mt. charleston for pat's b-day then a few days later had dinner at ra with the boys. the pix were hilarious. they tell the story of our day, well the day that we spent up at mt. charleston. i should of done homework that night, but once again i didn't. then last week monday which was the 3rd i spent like 5 hours catching up on trig homework and still never got around to the trig journal. on tuesday (4th) was the first day back. it was an even day. i was on time for anatomy. it's a rare thing, but after midterms i no longer have to worry about that class since i'm dropping it. then trig. then brit lit and we watched the first half of nicholas nickleby. then first day back in e2 and we had jazz with tommy. i had like no energy. after school went to chinatown with julie ann and jessica and we were there for awhile because we're indecisive and we never know who's leading who because we're all following each other.
on wednesday it was an odd day i just spent the whole period talking with willavy since all the enlargers in the darkroom were taken. then choreography. then lunch. my left eye was hella irritated by my contact. it was like that for the whole day. after lunch gov't, then e2. in e2 all we did was work on our finals. i stayed at school until 4 because julie ann was finishing up her portfolio so that she could send in her calarts application. i got home before 5, but decided not to go to jazz because my eye was extremely irritated, i didn't feel like it, and i had my trig journal to do. i had no clue what the hell i had to do for my trig journal and ended up not finishing it. on thursday i was ready on time, but julie didn't wake up till after 7 and i kinda got too lazy to go to school. i could of just missed that period, but i decided that i might as miss the whole day since it's not like i did my trig journal (which i never attempted to fully complete either. i turned it in on monday. i had since thursday to try to do more, but my lazy ass didn't do a thing.) i spent the day sleeping. i found out that mariel didn't go to school either, which is funny because we both thought that the other one was at school.
there goes our whole "no ditching or being absent until after exams" thing, lol. oh well. life happens. i went to school on friday and it was an easy day. developed/experimented with negatives in photo. senior choreography in choreography class. lunch. gov't. senior choreography in e2. i need to get on top of that and make up stuff for it because so far it's been my partner that's done everything and i feel bad. plus partially the piece is mine too so i need to do something about it. i couldn't go to hip hop because i had to work the box office for the dance p.e. show since it was mandatory for e2. it's going towards our trip to miami at the end of march. my eye was irritated again so i ended up wearing glasses that night. i haven't worn contacts since friday. anyways, working the box office without a calculator to tell you the exact change is a bitch. i had to do mental math. i hate it when i would get handed a hundred dollar bill. it's all good tho. at the end of it we got to have the remainders of the bake sale, lol. i got home around 9 and for some reason i felt like watching an old movie so i watched 10 things i hate about you. the night before i watched how to lose a guy in 10 days. i don't know what it was about the number 10 for those 2 nights. i love the "10 things i hate about you" poem at like the end of the movie.
on saturday i didn't do shit. it's not like i went to bed late, but i didn't get out of bed until 4 in the afternoon. i woke up at 12:30, but fell back to sleep on accident. all i did that night was watch movies. i watched harry potter 3 and soul plane on tv then watched wedding crashers before calling it a night and heading to bed. as if i hadn't gotten enough sleep. it's not like i sat on the couch the whole time either. when my parents got home i was chatting with my mom because she was showing me the things she bought. in this case, what's hers is mine's. her whole purse story was hilarious. me and my mom are addicted to shopping. we're such shoe and purse addicts. she bought 2 purses and 2 pairs of shoes. like i said, we love to shop. on sunday i woke up around noon. watched miami ink for awhile then called up mariel and talked with her for a bit. i should of done trig homework, but you know i said that the entire day and ended up not doing any shit whatsoever for school. and then my parents called me downstairs to talk to me about my 18th b-day.
my party is still on. my debut-ish sort of party. im thinking that i might just do the 18 roses and candles. not quite sure yet. i think i have enough now tho. my b-day is a lil over a month a way and usually these things take months of planning, which i started to do during the summer, but stopped since i thought i was just going to have a party instead. so we're really down to the wire and it's really stressful, so i spent a while making a tentative guest list so that we could have an estimate count of how many guests we're expecting around. then i got numbers for venues that i wanted my dad to call up and check for me since he said he'd do it, so i did the research part of getting the numbers and also writing down the important questions that he'd need to ask when he calls up all these places. it's stressful to plan this, but it'll pay off in the end since it's a party. it's my 18th b-day party, so of course it'll definitely be worth it. but it's just the fact that 1st semester is ending, exams are next week, and college aps are the things that need to get done and yea, like i said, stressful.
i spent the night talking with mariel on the phone about her debut and mine too, but more of her's because she's having a cotillion and she's going all out. we were talking about her court and who'd be partnered up with who kind of thing. and we were already deciding songs that we'd be dancing to at her debut. party planning is fun. then i ended up having a change in partners. it's all good tho, it's her party she can do what she wants, so i don't mind who she'll put me with. i got off the phone with her around 11 since we had already spent hours on the phone and because i had every intention of doing at least something for school, but yea, that didn't work. i decided to start getting ready for bed so i was brushing my teeth. while i was my mom told me that my phone was ringing because she was in my room leaving this paper that i needed her to sign for me on my bed. my phone was on silent so i didn't hear it, but she told me. she didn't tell me who called, but i'm not sure if she saw the name on the caller i.d. or not. i missed 2 calls. i wasn't sure who called, but i was surprised tho.
i didn't think he'd call me back. ok, so call me pessimistic, but i can't help it at times. but i have to say, it's a first in a long while. i called and asked to call back later since i needed to take a shower and get my things together for school. so i called him back and talked to him for like 2 and a half hours. we talked about quite a few things. it was a good conversation. there wasn't any dead ends or awkward silences. it was quite interesting/weird/amusing all at the same time. i ended up going to bed at like 3. it was funny when mariel called me up around 1 laughing her ass off, oh my gosh, that silly girl. so today i was a bit unprepared in a way since i was absent on thursday which was the last even day we had. i went to anatomy and ended up getting a D on the vocab quiz because i didn't even know it was today. then in trig there was a quiz, but i didn't have to take it, but i do have to make it up tomorrow after school tho. which reminds me, i really should get to finishing that review so that i know what the hell i'll be doing on the test and what properties i need to memorize. during trig i got called to the counselor's office.
so i got my forms for dropping anatomy. i just need my rents to sign them and turn it in a.s.a.p. then brit lit and i found out that when i was absent all i missed was some boring assembly-darn. in class we finished up watching nicholas nickleby, so another day that we didn't do much-yay. then lunch. then in e2 me and grace had the hardest time picking out what song we wanted to use for our final, which we still have much to choreograph, so i'll need to stay after school on thursday so that we can get that done. after school i went to the senior class meeting. gosh, the senioritis has hit, real bad. and it's spreading quickly, lol. then we decided to go to einstein bagel and stayed there for awhile while we talked about things from celebs, to politics, to our own personal lives. i think this is extremely long and it's about time that i get to working on all that trig schtuff. thank goodness tomorrow is an odd day. oh shit. that reminds me. i need to make a phrase to the 5 sentences. it'll be easy. i'll just dance around and remember what i did, oh and make it look interesting too, lol. it's for my choreography final. well, at least everything in here is up to date, so my work on here is done for now. | | |
| well, i haven't been on here in awhile. i would type up all that i've been to, but i'll do it later. last night/early early this morning i was just writing out a few things from '05 that i will never forget. i might type it up on here, i might not. i don't know, it just depends on what mood im in. anyways, christmas was great. i actually got the stuff on my list. i love my family. christmas eve was fun spending time with the cousins. im excited for new year's eve at my auntie's house. im excited for the new year, 2006, my graduating year...the year i turn 18. my year...as usual it will be "expect the unexpected". that's what happened this past year. mariel's predictions were right. we'll just have to wait and see what will happen next year. im not going to make any new year's resolutions because by february i usually forget what they are. i make resolutions up whenever i need to/whenever they're needed because that way i actually do it. that may not make any sense, but at least i understand what i meant.
i really need to do my trig homework assignments and journal. eek. it's the only class that i have homework in. i also need to write down my comp choreography for choreography class and E2. i don't really count it to be homework, but it's bad because i've forgotten a lot of the choreography i made up and i also mix up what i have for E2 and choreography class. i'll get it done some way some how tho. gah, it's still winter break. enough about school. my room is a mess. i've got gift boxes all over the place on top of the chaotic organization that i had in my room to begin with. i think i shall do that today. well, at least attempt to. i was going to do it yesterday while i was motivated, but i got distracted and lost motivation so i never got around to it, but i did end up writing out the things i will remember forever about 2005. since im bored i only meant to make an entry so that i could post this lil icon quiz thingy that i took, but i ended up typing up a bit more than i intended. oh well. i'll get back to this later.
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| okay, so i haven't been on here in a week. for some reason i thought it was longer than that. anyways, i should be doing my homework since i have a lot of it, but im not. eek, not good. i meant to do some yesterday, but i got distracted. i decided to make an entry before i get into my homework. gash, i've been slacking a lot. i haven't been to an odd day class since the 2nd, lol. i ditched on tuesday the 6th and again on thursday the 8th. tuesday was completely planned and thursday was a spur of the moment decision. so i only went to school on monday, wednesday, and friday. no more ditching for this last week tho. i hate homework and projects. lately on weekdays i've hella been slacking on doing homework. i won't start until 9 or 10 at night, then i end up falling asleep then waking up around 1 and spending like an hour to an hour and a half doing some of it or trying to complete it then getting my things together for school. very bad. senioritis much? im just so blah lately. it doesn't feel like christmas to me. im not a grinch about it tho. i've already gotten my siblings and friends their presents. hmm now ima end up ranting, so i'll put this on hold for now. | | |
| i haven't written in here in a few days. well, it seems like lately something has to happen at least once a week. so thursday i ditched anatomy to a) prevent getting an rpc for it being my 4th tardy and b) to study for my trig test because for some odd reason the night before i was hella tired and knocked out before studying. i don't know why i was so tired, i ditched jazz just to study and yet i didn't. im pretty confident of how i did on my trig test, so hopefully i got a good grade. in english we presented our group projects of the medieval newspaper, but our group was different and decided to do it similiar to the national enquirer, but instead ours was the national executioner. in e2 practiced the run thru for our performance the next day. stayed after school to develop pix for photo since the assignment was due on friday. left school around 4, later than i had planned, but julie, jessica, nina, and i went to taco bell real quick to eat and chat a little before heading home. since the next day was an odd day i had no homework to do so i think i spent some time on the phone, i mean i always do, but thursday was just different.
friday had photo in the morning and we critiqued ( i know i must of spelt that wrong) the pix from the assignment and learned how to do the new one. mike called up willavy trying to get her to ditch and she wanted me to come with, but i said some other time since i had to perform in e2, so she decided not to go and we somewhat planned a ditch day for this upcoming week. choreography was ok, lunch, then gov't. in e2 we performed for the advanced theater students and 1a. we brought some theater students to tears because they were so moved and inspired. after school i stopped by the photo show real quick before going home and julie met up with me. there was free cookies and freakin julie ate 1 peanut butter cookie and bit another. she's allergic to peanuts. that's what she gets for just eating and not checking her food. afterwards went home because i had dance @ 4:30. i could of ditched and just went to first friday with julie and i think jessica went to, but no because my parents wouldn't of let me plus i had SATs on saturday. so after dance my dad picked us up and we picked up some in-n-out for dinner then went home.
saturday woke up at 6:30 then went to unlv to take the SATs. me and julie ann were in the same room. we were being hella stupid and joking around while standing in line for our room assignment. gash that effin test takes forevar! it took like 4 and a half hours and we didn't even start till 9...how retarded! the first time i took it i got out before 12:30 because my proctor started us before 9. anyways, got picked up by the rents and my sis and went to aloha kitchen to eat, then stopped by target to get a few x-mas things. went home then got ready because me and mariel planned on going to see harry potter 4 or at least going out. we ended up not seeing harry potter 4 which was cool with us because we already decided that when she got to my house. we got gas and mariel was like let's go to premium, so obviously i agreed to it because she wanted to and i sort of wanted to go too. so we went and stopped by starbucks first. went around and looked thru several stores, even tried on corsets at charlotte russe which was kinda funny. we ran into several people yesterday. before we left we decided to stop by bernini just to say what's up to the guys, but that didn't run too smoothly.
it wasn't like there was fighting, it was just awkward, with lots of tension and uneasiness. as we were leaving rajee and jason came to the store so we ended up staying and me and mariel chatted with jason, and since he was cold and didn't want to wait for rajee, we kept him company by going to starbucks with him. coincidence? i think not. it's weird i was able to notice and recognize right away, but yea it didn't help with the uncomfortableness that i was already feeling. rajee finally met up with us. we spent like an hour in there just talking with her and jason since we haven't seen them since leshelle's debut back in august. so we were all catching up then left and when we left it was hella freezing. so then me and mariel were hella in the "fuck it" type of mood and met up with mike and rich at forum shops because we wanted to kick it them. we went to FAO and took hella pix. it was hella fun since they're cool to hang out with and hanging out with them totally took us out of our bad mood, well not really bad mood, i guess you could say it was more like disappointment. we only stayed for like an hour, but it was still fun none the less. we left a little bit after 11 because we needed to start heading home, so we said bye to the guys and it was nice of mike to walk us to mariel's car.
i was hella tired, but i didn't go to bed till like 3am last night. which is weird because it's not like i was talking to anyone on the phone or online either. today (technically yesterday because now it's after midnight meaning it's monday, but i still count it to be sunday night) i got woken up around 9:30 because i had to help with putting up the lights outside. did that for awhile then had to rearrange furniture to make room for the x-mas tree which we meant to put up, but couldn't because my parents had to go grocery shopping and run errands. i spent most of my time after that on the phone. i think between the hours of 5-11 pm i was mostly on the phone. yea i had dinner and did other things, but majority of the time was spent on the phone. not with one person so.more like three different people. i was just hella talkative today i guess you could say. anyways, i think that my curiosity is going to kill me. a bit extreme, i don't mean it literally, but i can't help it if im curious. but curiosity brings me to misery at times because the things i want to know will never be explained to me.
im hoping not never though. i hope that eventually things will calm down and people will realize the right way to go about things, or at least realize that they need to settle things once and for all and do it properly. hmm im just rambling on now and i really need to stop because i have school in a matter of hours and i need to get sleep. also, i can't be tardy because i'll end up with an rpc-grrreeeaaattt. whatever, they can give it to me if they want. i plan on dropping anatomy at semester anyways. i made the decision to not get the medallion because that piece of metal isn't worth the detentions and what not that i get for being late to anatomy and also that class has nothing to do with what i plan on doing in my career. i don't know, the class is so much of a hassle and i don't care for it or need it. only reason why i took it was just for the medallion, but im allowed to change my mind. at least im still graduating with honors and that's all that matters to me. medallion was just a little bit more, but whatever, call the senioritis or whatever you want, but im not into wasting my time with a class that i don't enjoy entirely. damnit, im still rambling. but yea im stopping myself this time for sure because i need to sleep. at least there's only this week and next week before the break-yah, something to look foward to. | | |
| right now i should be studying for my trig test, but lately it's been so hard to concentrate and focus. i can force myself to do it, but at times it's better not to force myself. i'll get right to it after i do this entry. making entries always helps me to get focused because it makes me put my worries down somewhere so that i can focus on what i need to do at the moment. but yea, that trig test is most definitely one of my worries at the moment. my grades are dropping, not dramatically, but being the hypocritical over achiever that i am, B's aren't good enough. why i call myself a hypocrite? because i want A's, but im not busting my ass for them.
to top that off i have SAT's this saturday. fuck, i just hope that i do better...much better than what i got the first time. i want this to be the last time that i ever have to take that damn thing. im just worried that i won't focus enough and end up getting a lower score. hmm and there's also that really really important project [orla=outside reading literary analysis] that's like 500 points that's due in about 2 weeks or less. i'll get it done tho. but yea, as much as i am worried about all my school and academic things, there's also my personal problems that still haven't been settled yet. like i said before, i wish that i could live in my ideal world. that's one impossible wish tho...
i can't believe that tomorrow is the first day of december. that means it's the last month of 2005. then it'll be 2006 and the next thing you know i'll turn 18 and then i'll graduate. such an overwhelming thought. before it use to feel like forever until it would come around and now it's coming too quickly. but yea, i already have enough to worry about at the moment so i really shouldn't bring up the whole '06 thing. anyways, there's nothing more for me to say at the moment because if i continue on it'll just be repetitive and i'll just be rambling on. then i'll bring myself into thinking about things that i shouldn't think about right now and that's not good because i must focus on trig. ok enough of this. | | |
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